Let Brandi Be Your Candy

I very very very much want to be the chosen slave to serve Akasha for the next month. Every time the training reaches another level with the messages and the web cams and the all too brief phone call during one of the chats I get even more excited and more into it and just heedlessly dive in deeper to submit and obey and please with all the effort I can. Just the idea of advancing to that next level of submission fills me with yet an even deeper desire to put everything I have into surrendering and giving all I can to provide the utmost service for Akasha.

What I have to offer is the very same eagerness and dedication and honesty that I have put into all my lessons and the chats. I think I do a very good job of expressing my feelings and reactions in text and messages and responding very enthusiastically (and whorishly) in chats. I am very much a novice in some ways but always try my hardest to complete any task with an eye on pleasing the one who gave it while in other places I am more experienced and take full advantage of how deeply involved I can get in something.

For Akasha I would focus on surrendering as fully as possible everything that I had to give - my body and my mind and even my manhood and my dignity. I would submit to sissification beyond even what was done in these lessons. I would wear panties every day. I would leave my cock trapped in the cb6000 every day and go further in chastity than I ever have before if she wishes. I would turn my ass over to her as she used it until it really was able to take a full dildo. I would shave myself in places I have never shaved before.

Of course in the end it is not about a list or at least not about my list. It is about doing what she chooses to have me do - doing what will bring her pleasure at that moment. Even if it is one of my less favorite things (like the nipple clamps) or something I might initially find a bit odd like having to put on the hockey equipment for her that is what I need to do. I make it through the clamps and I discover just how arousing the hockey stuff can be because of the pleasure that Akasha derives from it.

I want to put everything I have into serving her and push myself further than ever - not just because I want to be chosen for this but because that is how I want to submit for her. The deeper I get the more the submissiveness takes hold and the easier it is to fall further into it.

I would make myself very available to her at all times and be extremely attentive. I would turn myself over to her and trust in her completely putting my enthusiasm and obedience and sluttiness totally at her disposal (along with all my nice gear and nasty outfits and hockey equipment).

So many of the things in these trainings and the chats are scary and exciting - usually both at the same time - and I imagine that the same will hold true for what would transpire if I was chosen except much much more so. Just that brief phone call during one of the chats was almost enough to make my heart or my brain explode. I worry about just how far Akasha could take things and just how much I would helplessly lose control both to her and to the desires that she expertly channels. I worry and yet I so want to find out.

So far I have learned a great deal - how to find the excitement in things I might not get at first and how to push myself through greater levels of desperation and torment and how to truly concentrate on just what the domme wants from a situation. I truly hope to additionally learn about how Akasha responds to submission right then and there beyond just the typed words to a group of sluts in a chat and how I can best submit and react to the immediate demands she would make to bring her the most pleasure. I very very much want to know what the deeper and more personal levels of submission to Akasha are and I so badly want to experience them.


Brandi